Overcoming hardships

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your family of believers all over the world is going through the same kind of suffering you are.” 1 Peter 5:7-9

Do you ever have those weeks where you feel like the world and practically everyone in it is against you? Okay, maybe that’s a little overdramatic but still, those weeks where you’re trying to be optimistic and stay positive but you feel like the enemy is against you. I have been thinking of this song I have this hope by Tenth Avenue North

“As I walk this great unknown
Questions come and questions go
Was there purpose for the pain?
Did I cry these tears in vain?

I don’t want to live in fear
I want to trust that You are near
Trust Your grace can be seen
In both triumph and tragedy

I have this hope
In the depth of my soul
In the flood or the fire
You’re with me and You won’t let go

I know that life is a series of great unknowns and the anxiety comes when you don’t know what will come next. Arguably I might be being too optimistic about a current situation ending well and that’s okay to an extent I mean I would rather it end well but on the off chance that it doesn’t that’s okay too. You know those situations where every hypothetical ending you play out in your mind just brings up so many feelings? Yeah its been one of those weeks. I get that at any given time we are all in different seasons of our lives and our priorities are different but don’t turn against each other just because of one thing that was said even if it was super uncalled for. I hope that eventually we can move past victimizing one another for one comment that was made under the influence of alcohol.

Hebrews 6:19 “We have this hope as an anchor for our soul..” Continue reading

Be still


Yesterday as I was rushing from class to class, I began to stop and think knowing I had 4 minutes left to get back to class before the professor started to lecture after our 10 minute break, why is this world so fast paced. Why am I planning out how much time I would have to drop off my water, use the restroom and still get a snack before she began to lecture again? I shrugged it off and rushed to drop my stuff off in my next class and run down to get more water and a quesadilla something a little more substantial than my first snack. So I get back to class and I’m out of breath from practically running upstairs, and it crosses my mind again why am I always in such a rush? Maybe it was the caramel macchiato sugar rush that I had influencing these thoughts but then I stopped and thought no I’m always moving this fast and my brain just about as fast if not faster. 

Why do we as a culture move so fast? We are so impatient waiting for something to get done, when it says in the Bible “be still” over 100 times. Have you ever thought about how many opportunities you’ve been given but you don’t slow down enough to make the best of the moments where God gives us the chance to speak into other people but we just pass up the chance. I think we need to slow down and encourage one another to live life the way god has called us to bringing him the glory that he deserves. 

Politics and God

WARNING: This post is going to be different than any other post I’ve ever written. I’ve been thinking tonight a lot about the new “Trumpcare” that was just passed by the house of representatives and researching the preexisting conditions that will inhibit the process of receiving healthcare. Some of these include from what I’ve read, diabetes, rape, glaucoma, domestic violence and even obesity. Do you know how many people are affected daily by these conditions that he is listing as a condition that can block someone from getting healthcare?!? I find it just agitating everything he is considering that can block the life saving care that someone might need I mean to leave it up to the insurance companies to sign waivers saying yes this person can legally receive care even with the said preexisting condition… it just annoys me. I mean something as simple as a migraine or anxiety can inhibit someone’s ability to receive medical attention?? Where does this even seem right? To me it almost feels like we are losing the ability to openly share about the physical ailments we may experience from day to day and get answers relating to each. It just doesn’t feel right…

By now if you’re still reading thanks that was more like a rant than anything… Now you might be wondering why is the title of this post politics and God it’s been more politics than anything, yes that’s true but can you imagine in the days when Jesus was alive if he were to refuse a relationship with someone on an intimate and personal level because of leprosy or blindness. That just wouldn’t make sense God doesn’t turn anyone away really no matter what background so why should it be that a health insurance company is obligated to refuse coverage to someone that needs it?!? God doesn’t refuse a relationship with someone that comes to him why would a doctor feel okay doing that.

Speaking of doctors and healthcare policies, why is there no funding for childhood cancer? On facebook I follow many children like Lily Bumpus, Fighting For Delilah, Team Mateo, and prayforbailey. Just this week one of the little girls Delilah passed away from cancer and Lilly who is 4 posted a video tribute to her today and it dang near made me ball my eyes out. With all these little kids fighting diseases such as cancer and God only knows what else, how is the healthcare policy going to affect them? Lilly is so young and has already lost two of her best friends to cancer yet she manages to smile and have fun and speak wisdom and gentle reminders into my life with every post. I can’t imagine how it feels for her knowing about death and heaven at such a young age but I pray that as she grows up she continues to share positivity and wisdom with the world.

Creating idols

Joshua 1:9 says “this is my command- be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” 

Lately God has been challenging me when it comes to trusting him with all of my heart. I’ve found myself leaning on my own understanding more than I would like to admit lately. Trusting in God isn’t always the easiest thing to do but it’s definitely one of the most important. I’ve made a new friend recently that is constantly reminding me to focus on god and treat everything I do as an act of worship. Being reminded of that a lot recently has opened my eyes to how many idols I actually have guilt and shame being two of them. I never really put a lot of thought into how those things can become idols but they really do take my focus off of God. I think it’s a lot of learning how to manage the guilt and shame and not getting to the point where yes they are idols. I listened to a really insightful podcast recently from femperfect and it talked a lot about guilt and shame. Following are a few things that I really found interesting as I listened. 

Guilt moves you towards forgiveness. Shame becomes an idol you serve all of the time. Shame distorts the truth and makes you want to hide. Shame destroys healthy relationships with yourself and God. Shame keeps you inauthentic with your feelings. God wants a Christian that is always strong and humble. Lord I pray that you would show me more of you! Let prayer do the heavy lifting. And last but not least choose joy, it’s a decision. 

Lately god has been opening my eyes to the importance of prayer and the importance of trusting fully in him. I’ve found myself getting easily overwhelmed and I really want to break that pattern. The first step to that: break the idols of guilt and shame! 

Stress


In contemporary society it is so easy for us as christians to fall into pleasing people rather than pleasing the wonderful God we serve. I’ve been thinking a lot about what constitutes worship in gods eyes. It is often overlooked how everything we do is considered worship of god, whether it be who we let into our lives, what we put into our bodies, and what we do in general. I was talking with one of my friends the other day and she was sharing how she was feeling challenged in worshipping god through her education and I agreed. It is so hard to glorify God with every action when sometimes it just feels easier to just curl up and give up, or just check out for a day so to speak. I feel like as a student people don’t always acknowledge that sometimes I just need a day off and I’ll get back to what needs to be done, and I get frustrated about it. I mean for people to tell someone ex a stressed out college student to relax and not stress out it makes it harder to not stress.

“Always pray with a thankful heart; everything that you have is a result of God’s supply. He is the ultimate source, not money, a job, career, relationship, a perfect clothing size, or anything else. Once that fact becomes a reality to you, then God’s peace will sustain you.”

I think as college students it is crucial for us to not manipulate god for things. Always pray with a thankful heart; everything that you have is a result of God’s supply. It might seem like too much at times but always trust that God will pull you through.

Hurricanes of Emotion

We take our shame and guilt and give it to Jesus to grow in love with Jesus everyday. This is definitely something I’ve been struggling with lately. To be honest I haven’t been taking my struggles to god lately I’ve been trying to cope on my own with anxiety, feeling alone and just struggling in general. Through many experiences lately I’ve realized that god is calling me back to him whether I realize it or not. Some of the things that god wants me to do aren’t always going to be easy but if I trust in him fully I know great things will come from it. I heard a quote today that said being brave doesn’t mean that you’re not scared its that you’re scared but you still do something, and I stopped and thought about it and that’s what God often calls us to do is to step out of our comfort zone and do new things. You know how sometimes you just get lost in reflection over everything happening in your life and where God is leading you to go? That’s been me a lot this week and he’s pulled me many different directions that all lead me back to Him. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t really struggling through this. I’m building so many new relationships and its honestly straining me trying to find a balance between helping others and taking time out for myself. Today in chapel during worship, I darn near broke down into tears singing “Like a tidal wave
Crashing over me Rushing in to meet me here Your love is fierce Like a hurricane
That I can’t escape Tearing through the atmosphere Your love is fierce.” This was just so powerful to me just feeling like I can’t escape the hurricane of emotion that God is bringing me to. It’s been so frustrating honestly but through it I’ve definitely learned a lot. Definitely realizing how important it is for me in this season to put myself first some. Just gotta take a step back and enjoy the view.

Negative reactions on social media

I’m not one to get emotional on social media. Maybe a little on twitter but not on Instagram or Facebook. When I do though I’ve noticed that I get criticized a lot.

I was outside today and happened to notice the pattern of angel wings in the sky and I was reminded of my grandpa. So I was super excited and didn’t post what it reminded me of in my caption on Instagram/Facebook, but I made it known that it made me feel good seeing this. In my caption yes I did say clouds, because I got excited. Little did I know after feeling so comforted by this someone had the nerve to comment “clouds”. Okay, so in the moment I didn’t think about chemtrails but why do people pick those posts that make you happy to crush your feelings. Probably me just overreacting from hormones but really it’s so frustrating. I mean why do people that don’t fully agree with your views knock them? This is the one aspect where I feel like things are better left unsaid, but who am I to judge? I just wish that on social media people would just respect one another’s viewpoints even if there is disagreement.