Anniversaries 

Something about grieving that a lot of people don’t always discuss is how it feels approaching the anniversary of the death. The days leading up to the anniversary are most often the hardest, at least for me. As I mentioned previously this Saturday marks the one year anniversary since my grandpa passed away. As I…

Feeling sad

Everyone says that it’s okay to be sad when you miss someone you love that is in heaven. Then there’s those people who say to be sad but not for a long time. Some people get over it more than others. For someone my age, I’ve been to a lot of funerals I think it’s…

Feeling Used 

I will never understand how people feel okay with abusing others just to get what they want. It amazes me how going through something like losing a loved one shows you who is really true to you at all times! Sometimes it takes tragedy to realize the support system that surrounds you. There’s always going…

Timing

Grieving and timing are so closely related it’s scary sometimes. Some days you can do things that remind you of those you miss and some you can’t. It just all depends. Today was one of those days. I was listening to some music that reminded me of my grandpa and just sitting there enjoying the…

Feeling drained 

We all have those days where we just feel so exhausted that this happens. I’m not going to lie, it’s been a busy and stressful week but all in all worth it. I know life requires give and take but lately I feel like I haven’t been sleeping that great and it’s hitting me hard….

Putting yourself first

I’ve come to realize a lot lately that it is hard for me to express my emotions because I put everyone else’s feelings first. Through long late night conversation the other night with my best friend I realized that things need to change. I need to feel okay with not sharing everything with everyone, I…

Challenges

One of the challenges of grieving is having so many people all feeling the same thing but not being sure of how to talk about it. Communication is key to processing feelings. It is okay to feel sad and alone but don’t hide your feelings from those who care about you. Today marks one year…

Feeling down

You know those days where you just wake up feeling in a funk and wanting to just curl up and go back to sleep?? That was me today but I put on a happy face, painted my nails, put on a new tank top and sandals and make up and dealt with life. Ended up…

Firsts

I know I have mentioned this before, but the first holidays and anniversaries of someone’s passing are always hard. This father’s day is going to be the first fathers day without my grandpa and I haven’t really thought about it but I’m really struggling with it. I remember last father’s day so vividly, my grandpa…

So many feels

How do feelings change so rapidly from day to day?? I mean the other day I was hoping and praying for an opportunity to go to the cemetery and visit my grandpa whereas today my dad said he wanted to go to the cemetery this week but the only thing was I didn’t realize, how…

Words hurt!

“Whoever guards his mouth preserves his life; he who opens wide his lips comes to ruin.” Proverbs 13:3 I think in today’s society this is something that we overlook the negative impact our actions and words can have on others. I’ve always known that I have struggled with anxiety but haven’t really been open about…

The beauty in the world

Do you ever find yourself sitting outside just staring at the sunset thinking about how great God is that he would place colors in the sky like that every night? That was me tonight, except along with that I took it as a symbol from my grandpa. I have seen a lot of people posting…