Do you ever find yourself sitting outside just staring at the sunset thinking about how great God is that he would place colors in the sky like that every night? That was me tonight, except along with that I took it as a symbol from my grandpa. I have seen a lot of people posting lately about how their loved ones in heaven send them signs to let you know they are there and I feel like this was one of them. I’ve really been missing him lately and just finding it hard to believe that it’s been almost a year. So much has changed in the last year it’s so hard to explain but there are so many things I wish I could tell him even though I know he knows. I’m reminded of the bible verse “for I know the plans I have for you, declares the lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13. When we feel alone is when we need to seek God most and seeking him through tears is sometimes all we can do. “We pour out our miseries, God just hears a melody, beautiful the mess we are the honest cries of breaking hearts are better than a hallelujah sometimes.” They say we should pray when it’s hardest to pray but when you feel like you can’t just know God sees our tears as prayers.