The complexity of grieving 

Grieving is such a complex process, things that you don’t even think about can influence how you react to loss. For me those things are being spiritual like my grandpa was and being one of the two family members there when he passed. I’ve found myself lately longing for just one more hug from him…

The effects of loss

Lately I’ve been reflecting a lot on how much I strived to make my grandpa proud. Before I ever lost a loved one I always wondered what it would feel like, and if it was really how it was portrayed in television shows. Having just experienced the anniversary of my grandpas passing which wasn’t really…

Comforting thoughts

I don’t know why but I was hesitant the other day to check my “on this day” on Facebook, just didn’t want to do it and when I finally did I realized that it was because of what I might’ve seen. The first post was a picture of my grandpas obituary, not the ideal first…

Feeling pressured

Making positive changes for myself is something I’ve always struggled with and I’m finally coming to terms with doing things that are best for me. With that as an only child and a pretty great support system comes the pressure from people that want to see me continue to do well for myself but don’t…

Emotions 

Why do women feel like we have to hide our feelings? Maybe not all women feel this way but lately I have. Maybe it’s just me living in the past and coupled with anxiety that makes me struggle with expressing emotions but sometimes I just find it really hard to do. As I write this,…

Change

July… A month that feels like it just happened yesterday. It doesn’t feel like it’s been a year. Last July was one of the hardest months in my life. July second at 3:15 pm one if the most influential men in my life went to be with the lord. I’m glad that he’s not suffering…