Creating idols

Joshua 1:9 says “this is my command- be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  Lately God has been challenging me when it comes to trusting him with all of my heart. I’ve found myself leaning on my own understanding more than…

Letting God be in control at all times

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways, my ways,” says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9 “Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.” 2…

Praise God in all times

Praising God when it feels hardest to praise him is beginning to become so important in my life. From realizing that all through these trials I should have been thanking him for the strength will be used in the future to realizing that others actually realize how important it is to praise God when you…

The complexity of grieving 

Grieving is such a complex process, things that you don’t even think about can influence how you react to loss. For me those things are being spiritual like my grandpa was and being one of the two family members there when he passed. I’ve found myself lately longing for just one more hug from him…

The effects of loss

Lately I’ve been reflecting a lot on how much I strived to make my grandpa proud. Before I ever lost a loved one I always wondered what it would feel like, and if it was really how it was portrayed in television shows. Having just experienced the anniversary of my grandpas passing which wasn’t really…

Comforting thoughts

I don’t know why but I was hesitant the other day to check my “on this day” on Facebook, just didn’t want to do it and when I finally did I realized that it was because of what I might’ve seen. The first post was a picture of my grandpas obituary, not the ideal first…

Change

July… A month that feels like it just happened yesterday. It doesn’t feel like it’s been a year. Last July was one of the hardest months in my life. July second at 3:15 pm one if the most influential men in my life went to be with the lord. I’m glad that he’s not suffering…

Anniversaries 

Something about grieving that a lot of people don’t always discuss is how it feels approaching the anniversary of the death. The days leading up to the anniversary are most often the hardest, at least for me. As I mentioned previously this Saturday marks the one year anniversary since my grandpa passed away. As I…

Feeling sad

Everyone says that it’s okay to be sad when you miss someone you love that is in heaven. Then there’s those people who say to be sad but not for a long time. Some people get over it more than others. For someone my age, I’ve been to a lot of funerals I think it’s…

Putting yourself first

I’ve come to realize a lot lately that it is hard for me to express my emotions because I put everyone else’s feelings first. Through long late night conversation the other night with my best friend I realized that things need to change. I need to feel okay with not sharing everything with everyone, I…

Feeling down

You know those days where you just wake up feeling in a funk and wanting to just curl up and go back to sleep?? That was me today but I put on a happy face, painted my nails, put on a new tank top and sandals and make up and dealt with life. Ended up…

Firsts

I know I have mentioned this before, but the first holidays and anniversaries of someone’s passing are always hard. This father’s day is going to be the first fathers day without my grandpa and I haven’t really thought about it but I’m really struggling with it. I remember last father’s day so vividly, my grandpa…